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I've got Swift Fever.

Today is an awesome day. :) I saw my sweetie for the first time since 2 months hehe. Even though the meeting was a mere 30-minute, I very much enjoyed it. I noticed three sweet things from my baby...


First, she asked me, "Kumain ka na Mie?" The fact that she called me "Mie" in public made my heart burst with joy (he he). She hadn't done that before. :D


Second, when she asked me to send Speak Now and Mine to her phone, I noticed that her wallpaper is the picture I've edited for her. This one...

Last, she thanked me for the Physics papers I've passed on to her. For real.


It's incredible ha ha. Because she's so malambing lately. I'm online on Facebook, and I'll be surprised because she'll suddenly chat me up, very unusual for her. But I love it. It makes me think that if this is just for a while, at least I have a part of my sweet, malambing, Sweetie dear, the part I loved the most and the reason why I adopted her in the first place.


Sorry for the unruly grammar today, I'm not really feeling great due to this cough and colds. Hmf. So, I think this is what I've got for today.


lovelovelove,
-cia-


P.S. Listen to TS's Speak Now. You'll absolutely LOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVEEEEEEE IT! :)

Hmm...

I talked to my Miemie today. And I felt awesome. :) It's been a long while since I had talked to her, and honestly, I did miss her so much. It's our month!! 17 days to go and we'll be celebrating our 4th anniversary as Miemie and Baby. Sweet! <3


So, we had our Cheering Competition at school today. I didn't realize earlier this morning that I was wearing yellow--the color of my team. I wasn't at the least excited because I knew how unprepared we were. But turns out that the dance is cool, and I ended up cheering with them. Ha ha.


I guess this is it. I'm tired and sleepy now, and I want to make lambing to my Miemie dear. Good night everyone and may you have the sweetest sleep tonight!








lovelovelove
-cia-

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Midterms na.

I'm supposed to be AFK cause I'm studying, but I gotta share this. Haha. :))

Watch Emily Osment's version of Once Upon A Dream, it's awesome. :)

So, we got the confirmation we've been waiting for: No TS Concert in October. :/
 Good thing, so I can still save up haha.

Midterm Exams are here, so I gotta study.


lovelovelove,
-cia-

Drama 101

Kill me. Just kill me now.

It's been a week now since I've started thinking about Alex again. Seems like the world around me reminds me of him. Dammit! I thought I'm cool with everything, but lately I can never tell anymore. And a line from heaven knows really strikes a nerve whenever I hear it: "And all the time I act so brave I'm shaking inside..."

Why can't I let go?? It hurts me so much to think that I've really lost him. All those times that I say to myself he's the one who has lost a lot because he let me go easily, I'm beginning to think it's the other way around. Hay.. What should I do?? :((

Heaven Knows - Carol Banawa

He's always on my mind

From the time I wake up, til I close my eyes.

He's everywhere I go.

He's all I know.

Though he's so far away, it just keeps getting stronger

everyday.

And even now he's gone

I'm still holding on.

So tell me where do I start cause it's breaking my heart

Don't wanna let him go

Maybe my love will come back someday

only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find their way

only heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray,

Cause heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me,

that if you really love him

You gotta set him free

And if he returns in time,

I know he's mine

So tell me where do I start cause it's breaking my heart

Don't wanna let him go...

Maybe my love will come back someday

Only heaven knows.

And maybe our hearts will find their way

Only heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray,

Cause heaven knows,

Why I live in despair,

Cause wide awake or dreaming I know he's never there.

And all this time I act so brave I'm shaking inside

Why does it hurt me so?

Maybe my love will come back someday,

Only heaven knows.

And maybe our hearts will find their way,

Only heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray,

cause heaven knows...

Heaven knows...

Cause heaven knows. 

What should I do?? :( :'(

Taylor Swift

Taylor Swift: "Taylor Swift Embedded Store"

It's Friday, I'm in love. :">

UNLUCKY 13.
It's Taylor Swift day of the month and the 8th monthsary of TSMC. Cool. <3


So, I've forgotten about my blog last night that's why I wasn't able to post any stories for you guys. Think I was so tired of everything last night, and the family had the best night. We joked around a lot and found everything funny. I was so busy in FACEBOOK. Hayy.


Anyway, I didn't have the best day today, 'cause I didn't see my crush. And I was planning to stroll SM until my feet ache, but my feet ached because of standing for a long time. My friend bored me. Ugh. Oh but I do love her. It's just that I didn't plan to go to SM just to watch some show... I bought my baby Pat a gift for tomorrow. It's her party. Yes, I am going. I don't want her to feel that I don't care about her party and then I'll attend other parties. No, I'm just not that person. Hope the gift fits! :)


So I was hoping that I'd see someone today, but unfortunately, fate decreed it's not yet time for us to meet. But I felt giddy when I met Ate Hermae by the hallway at the SHL Bldg. When I walked past her, and waved, she called me, "Hi ****! Ay, Pat pala!" then smiled. Haha. That made my day. :)


Hmm, what should I say? Oh! I want you guys to read something for me and then decide if what I wrote is right. Please comment on it cause I really wanna know. You have to add me first in Facebook for you to read it, and my friend also. She's Airies, she's on my featured friends. Just go to her profile, add her up, and when she accepts you, go find my post. It's dated last night. :)


So I guess this it. I'll think of better topics to share with you. May God bless us all. Have a fun and great weekend!


Much love,


Cia <3


~ Torn - Natalie Imbruglia

Mine - Taylor Swift

Oh oh oh.
Oh oh oh.


You were in college working part-time, waiting tables
Left a small town, never looked back.
I was a flight risk, with a fear of falling
Wonderin' why we bother with love if it never lasts.


I say, "Can you believe it?"
As we're lying on the couch,
The moment, I can see it.
Yes, yes. I can see it now.


Do you remember we we're sittin' there by the water,
You put your arm around me for the first time.
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine.


Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You said we'll never make my parents' mistakes


But we got bills to pay
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take,
Yes, yes. This is what I've thought about.


Do you remember we we're sittin' there by the water
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine.
Do you remember all the city lights on the water
You saw me start to believe for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine.


And I remember that fight 2:30 AM
Said everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street.
Braced myself for the goodbye,
'Cause that's all I've ever known.
And you took me by surprise,
You said, "I'll never leave you alone."


You said, "I remember how we felt sittin' by the water,
And every time I look at you, it's like the first time.
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter,
She is the best thing that's ever been mine."


(go on, make it last. go on, never turn back.)
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter,
You are the best thing that's ever been mine.
(go on)
Do you believe it? (go on) Gonna make it now. (go on.) I can see it. (yes, yes) I can see it now...






There, don't hesitate to comment if there are errors. I'm still not sure with the lyrics eh. :)

Waiting for you. :)

I really don't know what to write anymore. My alter ego - writer Pat - hasn't visited me yet for months already. It's because I don't have anything to write about. Maybe I'll just stick up a link tonight and then write a poem for tonight's post. Please, give me my inspiration! :(


So here's the link for OUR conversation...ya know what I mean. ;)
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Here'e my favorite poem which I included in our school paper, I was the Editor in Chief back then :)

Reminiscing

There I was, sitting

Indian-like on the rough

cemented floor,

Munching on Oreos

Humming in silence

Then we chattered about,

Walked here and there

Sweet innocence hovering

above my obscure future

There I was, walking along the

peopled corridor

As I inhale the scent of the

vague atmosphere.

Then we chattered about,

I paraded here and there;

Creating parodies of the

present

Henceforth had I come to this

edge?

Here I am, standing eminently

On the verge of my

personhood

As I stood reminiscing towards

the veracity of time

Gold it is as mentioned often

Precious as water is to living

And I had come,

Marching here and there

Creating visions of a new

future

From reminiscing.

Enjoy! Much love,

Cia <3

Let them know.

I'm here at school right now...and I have nothing to do while waiting for the class presidents' meeting at 4pm. I've decided this morning that I would not bring my laptop at school today, and I very much regret that decision. I so hope I can open my Facebook page but it's restricted. Darn.


So, I just ate my lunch, and I ate alone. My friends have left already and now I'm going solo. Haha. I'm currently writing my post while I'm here at the University library, and I have no idea what I would write about. A while ago, I was reading Emily Bronte's Wuthering Heights, but then I got bored and I searched for a new book to read. I found Coffee With Einstein and it interested me. I learned his theory of relativity. I didn't know it would be that complicated! But, at least we did not discuss that in our Physics class. I would have flunked that subject. Haha. So, Einstein said that the essence of his Theory of Relativity is this: "The speed of light is fixed even when it moves, time and space changes. Time is relative and space is relative, but speed is constant." But that is for the special theory of relativity. He also mentioned that other paper he passed - the general theory of relativity, in which he included the accelerated motion... Wait, am I discussing what I've read?? Physics?? Sheesh! I don't wanna be Einstein alright, but, you know... I am an Einstein, technically, that's our section back in my 4th year in high school [you should be laughing. this is the part where you should laugh. haha].


Anyway, I'm planning to read Shakespeare's Othello or Macbeth or Hamlet, or any of his works. I just hope I would be able to understand his archaic English. I very much want to read his creations, but the difficulty of the words stops me from doing so. I believe that when I read Romeo and Juliet, I would be able to fully appreciate it and know why it became very famous. On the contrary, when I watched the modern film of Romeo and Juliet, I disliked it. I was like, "Duh? How tragic?!You mean, how stupid they both were," because when you criticize the film basing on the book it came from, you definitely see its flaws. But when you read it in a very thorough manner, you can appreciate the beauty of its language, and the intricate words the author has written.
Gosh, why am I giving lectures????! Okay I should stop now, but I still have an hour or so, and I still can't open Facebook. I think I'll get back to reading books.



Ciao!

Cia <3

Feeling flirty tonight. ;)

It's Sunday, I'm in love.


Just kidding! I'm really just feeling flirty tonight. Earlier this evening, I chatted with my new crush Lorenzo. We ended up having 51 comments on his comment box, and just now, Ate Lady and Ate Hermae liked the wall post! My gosh! Haha. "Basta ang keso niyo ni Arem," said Ate Lady. Kilig!!! Haha. And then my long time crush-slash-best boy friend Nicholo confessed that he still has feelings for me but leaves everything up to God's will. Oh dear, what am I gonna do now?? Haha. Good thing I'm single. LOL. Am I drunk? What am I saying?!

Anyway, I enjoyed the whole day. I woke up with a "Mornin' Mie. :*" from my Baby Pat, ended up texting with her 'til noon. And we also talked in FB. :) Meanwhile, I'm listening to songs that really have upbeat tones. They reflect my mood. Haha. It's a very sweet day. All in all, I enjoyed the weekend. I hope the weeks to come would be as amusing and kilig as this. I felt really loved and important these past few days. Thanks to my daughters and my pack. Oh, and the boys in my life, too. Hahaha. :)


Oh, by the way, I've included a video clip of Martin dancing, it's really short, I know. But at least, you can hear us shrieking. Haha. :))




So tonight's blog is very short, because I'm tired and I want to keep things private for a while...don't wanna ruin the romantic atmosphere. I'll be posting more stories soon, and I hope I can post my novella here. But I guess it'd be so long and it would take a very long time for me to type it all again. It's 70+ pages, you know. ;) But I'd still try to post poems, thoughts, and daily experiences just for your entertainment and for my documentation. Haha. I guess I'll be posting a story early tomorrow. I'll bring my laptop at school so I wouldn't get bored while waiting for the meeting. Being the class president is a very tiring job!


So I guess this is it. Bonne nuit!


Much love,


Cia <3

Saturday Sentiments

Oh my gosh, I'm updating my blog every single night. Oh well, it's worth my time. I never really had a diary before so I'm gonna make this my online journal. Hehe. :)


It was a sweet, rainy day. I didn't do anything much during the afternoon. I just enjoyed the tranquility of our house, since it's the first time since ages that I've had the house all to myself for the whole day. I listened to my favorite songs and read old texts from the people I love the most. Least expected was my baby Pat sending a GM. So we texted and I spent my afternoon talking to her and my friends. I haven't had a heart-to-heart talk with her since I entered college. Despite my busy schedule, I try to keep in touch with her and let her know that I love her very much. I do this to my other daughters as well. I don't want them to feel that I don't love them anymore just because I'm a college girl now. So Patjoy and I talked about her crush and my past love story with my ex MU. But after a while she had to stop texting because she's in for a theater marathon. And so, I kept myself busy by doing my homework in Math. Oh, that reminds me, I still need an idea for our homework in ICT. We're supposed to be doing our own brochures via Open Office Writer. Anyway, my baby Iah made my day. I haven't felt very much loved lately and I'm getting a lot of attention and love from her which I'm wanting to have from my other daughters. Hmm. So, I have a new crush at school. His name is Allen Lorenzo. He's a freshman, too. His section is IHM 103, while mine is IHM 106. Err, I wonder. Haha. :) I hope his course is Tourism too so we could get together. Haha, my imagination's wild again tonight. 


I'm still in the process of moving on from my past love. I didn't know that I've really fallen in love and got my heart broken. Sometimes, I think about our sweet moments - talking on the phone for hours. He was the first person I would call or text when I woke up, and the last person I would say goodnight to. I miss saying "I love you" to him. I miss the times when we were in a fight and I'm mad at him, and he would go and rush to our house just to woo me. One time, the morning after our graduation ceremony, I was angry with him. He went to our house, with him is a box of my favorite chocolates and a bunch of flowers. It was so kilig. Then there's this one time where we talked to each other on the phone underneath the night sky, both of us looking at the lovely stars. Oh my gosh, I can't do this anymore. This is making me miss everything. Making me cry. I have to stop. I have to stop reminiscing those moments. I need to move on. Obviously, he had moved on. He has a new girl now. Ugh. I said I'd stop. He's such a flirty jerk who can't keep his eyes and heart on one girl! There, I'm feeling much better now that I've let that out.


I'm very thankful to God for all the blessings He's continuously giving me. For giving me my mom, and friends I really could rely on. I'm very thankful that He's given me APPEC. Yes, I've had a barkada back in high school, but that pack had never given me the same joy APPEC had given. I've never felt so happy in my life, and I've never felt that I really belong. This is the first time. So, much love to you, God. :) I would also like to thank Him for giving me my wonderful daughters: Patjoy, Iah, and Lyca. They cheer me up on my darkest days. Especially my baby Pat --though we're always on a fight, I know she loves me so much deep inside-- and my baby Iah, for making me feel very much loved and wanted. :) Thank You Lord for the good grades and the easy adjustment to college life. For guiding me into a university I love so much and where I really belong. For giving me strength, confidence, charm, and wisdom every time I stand in front of an audience, especially when I'm reporting in class. For giving me the confidence to speak in English - a thing I never really liked when I was in high school, but now I'm really getting used to and loving it. :) Thank you for giving me my twin soul, Thea. She understands me best. We have almost everything in common. Thank you for the hardships, shortcomings, and insecurities. That proves I'm really unique, and those make me a better person everyday. :)


So I guess that's it for tonight's blog. I'm still too tired from last night's adventure with Airies, and the all out support we've given to Lorenzo and Joshua. Believe it or not, I'm really hooked to him and his dancing. He's the best. He dances very well, just like MJ. He's sooooooo cute, too. My gosh, here I go again. Obviously, I'm infatuated. Haha. I guess he'll attend the upcoming Acquaintance Party. He's really cute. Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh. He's soo cute. Haha. Can't stop talking about him. I'm boring you, aren't I? Haha. Sorry!!! But if you've seen him you would go crazy right now too. :)) *Taylor Swift's Superstar playing in my head right now* Haha. Oh well, enough already. Bonne nuit!


Much love,


Cia <3

APPEC Adventures

It's Friday and we've had our first meeting in PE for the midterm period. It's been a very busy day, and it all started with the University Mass held at the University Auditorium around 8:30 AM until 9:30 AM. Since today is Friday, we stayed at the roof deck for 2 hours. It was a fun-filled afternoon for us, and APPEC anticipated the CITHM Got Talent. Haha. 


But suddenly my mom called me and said that I need to meet her to give her the keys to our house. So I left my bag with Esmie and went down from the 4th floor to the 1st floor of the SHL bldg. I rode a jeepney and was just going to pay my fare when all of a sudden I realized that I forgot to get the keys from my bag. So I went back inside the campus and had to climb the stairs up to the 4th floor! Imagine? Haha. It was so exhausting. Airies decided she would go with me and so she did. We met Mom at our subdivision and it was already 4pm. The program would start at exactly 1 hour! We had to rush back to LPU which is in Gen. Trias.


When we got back, there was already a long line outside the auditorium. Good thing our friends saved us seats.


To cut the story short, PMD rocked our world! Lorenzo is so cute, charming, and handsome. And he's a great dancer!! Sheesh! I've got a new crush hahaha. On our way home, we were not aware of our surroundings, so we rode a jeepney going to Dasma Highway, which is exactly the opposite of our route. So funny! All the way, we didn't have any idea that we rode the wrong jeepney. Hahaha. It's really exhausting and fun at the same time.

Hello Hello, Friday.

It's Thursday night and I've just listened to Taylor Swift's newest single, Mine. Yes, I'm supposed to help Loyd with his report but laziness is striking on me. Earlier today, I went to my former school with my friend Airies to give Pagong to my baby Patjoy. On our way, I felt jitters on the pits of my stomach. Maybe it's because I don't know what reaction I would get from my dearest daughter, because as far as I can remember, we're still on fire. For the past two weeks, we didn't talk much. It's my fault, really. I can't help being so melodramatic. It's in the genes, I think. But is that reason enough for your daughter not to talk to you? I guess not. So you see, I'm really hurt inside. And I'm keeping that locked away, plastering a big Band Aid to my heart. And she doesn't have any idea that I'm hurting. I'm a good pretender. :) So where does that lead us to? My realization of my own mistakes.

I realized that in life, no one, EXACTLY no one, thinks, acts, talks and feels the way I do. Just because I know that I've given a lot, I'd expect the same to be given back to me. Life isn't that way. People are not like that. They have their own minds, bodies, and feelings too. They're entitled to the same freedom, goals, and expectations just like me. I shouldn't force them into something that's just not them. I should not impose my feelings on them, and let them feel that I have the upper hand in everything. Because people who matter most  are like butterflies and sand-- once you tighten your grip, the sand slips away and the butterflies are crushed, now you're left with nothing. So I've decided that I'd try this new thing [for me... he he] called reverse psychology. When I feel that no one loves me the way I want them to love me, I'd say "It's just not their way of showing their love for someone really important to them." Because I know the feeling of a teenager, I am one. We've all got insecurities, and we all want to feel important, to be important. And we force people to look up to us and say "Hey, we admire you alright." or "I love you too." But really, the thought of it is somehow suffocating to the people we love. Anyway, [sorry, I'm being carried away by my thoughts and emotions.] so I'm trying to think things out before I act, so that instead of being insecure and over emotional, I will just triumphantly say, "I'm happy because at some point in my life, he/she has needed me."

And now that I've discovered this and reflected from it, I'm really feeling happy. Somehow the weight on my shoulder has been lifted up and a gush of relief from God fills me. Thank you Lord for wonderful days and nights. Oh, and thank You for patching things up between me and my baby. Oh, and the results of the Prelim exams, that too. And the confidence you are giving me everyday, I very much appreciate that...

Oh well, I could go on and on for the millions of blessings God has given me but it's really time for me to sleep now. It's 25mins past 11 and I hope I could get up early tomorrow. A big day ahead for all of us! 

Sweet dreams everyone, and may all have a good night's rest.

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Today is Love.

August 3, 2010. Tuesday.

Today is the first time I opened my 'Sentiments Cabinet' since I entered college. I don't know what urged me to open it again, after all before school started this year I vowed I would not open it. The reason: I don't want to miss my high school life. Yes, I know. Too immature. But, of course when you're going into a new phase in your life, you would definitely miss your 'usual' environment. Entering college is totally a new experience for all of us, because we're all starting to really experience the on-the-verge-of-adulthood moments.

I'm enjoying my college life right now. My former classmates complain that college is boring and difficult, but I feel the opposite. LPU gives us a fun environment and we're not feeling that we're in college already. It's just like back in high school. The only differences are the schedule, us focusing on major subjects suitable for our course, and of course, in college you socialize with different people every semester.
I have a new barkada now, and we named ourselves APPEC. Being an APPEC girl is so much fun. Our song is California Girls, but we revised it a little. So, since SM is very close to our school, we go there almost everyday. Just to window shop, or eat lunch, or do nothing at all. Haha. I know, fun. :)

So, today, four of the five APPEC girls went to SM just to eat lunch. But one of us went home earlier. So after hours of strolling, we decided to have some of our pictures printed. And hurray, Tronix offered to take our pictures just for 15 Php. Yeah, I enjoyed it much. Esmie taught me how to put make up. Haha.


Okay. Back to the very first story. So i decided to open my Sentiments cabinet, and I rearranged everything inside it. I had this inkling to take out my Box of Thoughts, and I did. And while I'm writing this post, I've got tears in my eyes. Rereading old letters from the people I treasure the most back when I was still in high school (I still treasure them!) made me realize how much time had passed, and how much things have changed since I started getting busy with life. And reading those letters made me wish I was still the high school student who I used to be. The moments I cherish the most was left in my former school, and I very much want to hug those again and feel the sweetness of each. I really miss those moments when all I could do is laugh with my close friends, cry on Jelyn's shoulder, and hug the people I love the most. Not thinking "What am I gonna do with my life after I graduated college?" but instead "What course am I gonna take up when I enter college?" Reliving those memories again is all I could wish for right now. But I know that's never going to happen. All I could do is to keep on remembering those moments so they don't go down the drain and have me lost my most important thoughts.

Missing my Baby Pat, my Miemie Dear, and all the other people I treasure the most made me think that no matter how happy I am right now with my college life, I would still go back to that old place which we call Alma Mater to relive and relish the past.

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love my twin!

it was 2 days before the eve of 2010, and my friend jelyn asked me to join this certain clan where taylor fans are subscribing to. she didn't stop until she persuaded me to do so. and i did. At first i was so bummed because her persuasiveness is so irritating. besides, all i know about clans are the endless sending of GMs which really annoys me. but then i realized this clan is different. we talked about taylor a lot, sometimes we talk about our personal lives. It was December 30 when i sent a GM stating "bonsoir" which is "good evening" in French. one member replied the same message, and it was her who has influenced my life so much lately. Her name is Thea. after a few chats, we found out that we have a lot in common. we even share the same dreams.

It has been only four months since we'd first known each other, but we act like we've known each other for years. she's my twin soul, and it's surprising that she thinks the same way too. she's the only one who has understood me this way. it's like everytime i strike a conversation with her, i'm talking to myself in the mirror. i haven't known so much joy ever since. i hope that we'd still stay the same, just like the twin souls we are today. :)

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drawings:)

drawings:)

pre-college jitters

yes, indeed, I'm almost a college girl
but, I'm nervous. can anyone give me tips on what to do?
i mean, i don't know how to exchange rooms for different subjects.
i wasn't accustomed to that kind of thing.
and the classmates. are they the same? or different?
do you have the same classmates just like in high school?
ugh, this pre college jitters is rubbing off me!

the hidden feeling...

he was there, and looking at me. staring is the right word. i turned my back and started walking, he followed. oh yes, did i mention that he's handsome? gorgeous, hot, sexy, angelic, breathtaking, and heartbreaking. yet i found no sparks in that little distance we shared, i was still longing for those arms who held me on my most memorable night...the arms who wounded around my little waist and hugged me tight....