Saturday Sentiments

Oh my gosh, I'm updating my blog every single night. Oh well, it's worth my time. I never really had a diary before so I'm gonna make this my online journal. Hehe. :)


It was a sweet, rainy day. I didn't do anything much during the afternoon. I just enjoyed the tranquility of our house, since it's the first time since ages that I've had the house all to myself for the whole day. I listened to my favorite songs and read old texts from the people I love the most. Least expected was my baby Pat sending a GM. So we texted and I spent my afternoon talking to her and my friends. I haven't had a heart-to-heart talk with her since I entered college. Despite my busy schedule, I try to keep in touch with her and let her know that I love her very much. I do this to my other daughters as well. I don't want them to feel that I don't love them anymore just because I'm a college girl now. So Patjoy and I talked about her crush and my past love story with my ex MU. But after a while she had to stop texting because she's in for a theater marathon. And so, I kept myself busy by doing my homework in Math. Oh, that reminds me, I still need an idea for our homework in ICT. We're supposed to be doing our own brochures via Open Office Writer. Anyway, my baby Iah made my day. I haven't felt very much loved lately and I'm getting a lot of attention and love from her which I'm wanting to have from my other daughters. Hmm. So, I have a new crush at school. His name is Allen Lorenzo. He's a freshman, too. His section is IHM 103, while mine is IHM 106. Err, I wonder. Haha. :) I hope his course is Tourism too so we could get together. Haha, my imagination's wild again tonight. 


I'm still in the process of moving on from my past love. I didn't know that I've really fallen in love and got my heart broken. Sometimes, I think about our sweet moments - talking on the phone for hours. He was the first person I would call or text when I woke up, and the last person I would say goodnight to. I miss saying "I love you" to him. I miss the times when we were in a fight and I'm mad at him, and he would go and rush to our house just to woo me. One time, the morning after our graduation ceremony, I was angry with him. He went to our house, with him is a box of my favorite chocolates and a bunch of flowers. It was so kilig. Then there's this one time where we talked to each other on the phone underneath the night sky, both of us looking at the lovely stars. Oh my gosh, I can't do this anymore. This is making me miss everything. Making me cry. I have to stop. I have to stop reminiscing those moments. I need to move on. Obviously, he had moved on. He has a new girl now. Ugh. I said I'd stop. He's such a flirty jerk who can't keep his eyes and heart on one girl! There, I'm feeling much better now that I've let that out.


I'm very thankful to God for all the blessings He's continuously giving me. For giving me my mom, and friends I really could rely on. I'm very thankful that He's given me APPEC. Yes, I've had a barkada back in high school, but that pack had never given me the same joy APPEC had given. I've never felt so happy in my life, and I've never felt that I really belong. This is the first time. So, much love to you, God. :) I would also like to thank Him for giving me my wonderful daughters: Patjoy, Iah, and Lyca. They cheer me up on my darkest days. Especially my baby Pat --though we're always on a fight, I know she loves me so much deep inside-- and my baby Iah, for making me feel very much loved and wanted. :) Thank You Lord for the good grades and the easy adjustment to college life. For guiding me into a university I love so much and where I really belong. For giving me strength, confidence, charm, and wisdom every time I stand in front of an audience, especially when I'm reporting in class. For giving me the confidence to speak in English - a thing I never really liked when I was in high school, but now I'm really getting used to and loving it. :) Thank you for giving me my twin soul, Thea. She understands me best. We have almost everything in common. Thank you for the hardships, shortcomings, and insecurities. That proves I'm really unique, and those make me a better person everyday. :)


So I guess that's it for tonight's blog. I'm still too tired from last night's adventure with Airies, and the all out support we've given to Lorenzo and Joshua. Believe it or not, I'm really hooked to him and his dancing. He's the best. He dances very well, just like MJ. He's sooooooo cute, too. My gosh, here I go again. Obviously, I'm infatuated. Haha. I guess he'll attend the upcoming Acquaintance Party. He's really cute. Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh. He's soo cute. Haha. Can't stop talking about him. I'm boring you, aren't I? Haha. Sorry!!! But if you've seen him you would go crazy right now too. :)) *Taylor Swift's Superstar playing in my head right now* Haha. Oh well, enough already. Bonne nuit!


Much love,


Cia <3