Drama 101

Kill me. Just kill me now.

It's been a week now since I've started thinking about Alex again. Seems like the world around me reminds me of him. Dammit! I thought I'm cool with everything, but lately I can never tell anymore. And a line from heaven knows really strikes a nerve whenever I hear it: "And all the time I act so brave I'm shaking inside..."

Why can't I let go?? It hurts me so much to think that I've really lost him. All those times that I say to myself he's the one who has lost a lot because he let me go easily, I'm beginning to think it's the other way around. Hay.. What should I do?? :((

Heaven Knows - Carol Banawa

He's always on my mind

From the time I wake up, til I close my eyes.

He's everywhere I go.

He's all I know.

Though he's so far away, it just keeps getting stronger

everyday.

And even now he's gone

I'm still holding on.

So tell me where do I start cause it's breaking my heart

Don't wanna let him go

Maybe my love will come back someday

only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find their way

only heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray,

Cause heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me,

that if you really love him

You gotta set him free

And if he returns in time,

I know he's mine

So tell me where do I start cause it's breaking my heart

Don't wanna let him go...

Maybe my love will come back someday

Only heaven knows.

And maybe our hearts will find their way

Only heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray,

Cause heaven knows,

Why I live in despair,

Cause wide awake or dreaming I know he's never there.

And all this time I act so brave I'm shaking inside

Why does it hurt me so?

Maybe my love will come back someday,

Only heaven knows.

And maybe our hearts will find their way,

Only heaven knows...

And all I can do is hope and pray,

cause heaven knows...

Heaven knows...

Cause heaven knows. 

What should I do?? :( :'(